Back to Square One

There's always that one who you wish would come back,
even when he took your whole world and painted it black.
You never got over him, and you wish he stayed,
he made your heart pound and put your head in a haze.

But just when you think you're better, he comes back around,
he crawls back into your heart without making a sound.
It takes no time at all to fall back in love,
you have something to believe in; to be proud of.

He fits to you like your favorite sweater,
and you start to think this time could be better.
But in the back of your head, you know it's only a matter of time,
before your walk in the woods becomes a hard, steep climb.

He slowly starts drifting, like a tide from the rocks,
you're mind starts to panic, then goes into shock.
He built you up just to break you down,
and in your own tears you begin to drown.

For weeks you are taken over by your feelings,
and you don't even know how to begin the healing.
Heartbreak turns to hatred, and then to rage,
you put your heart on lockdown inside of a cage.

Weeks turn to months, and eventually to a year,
And yet you're still wishing that he was here.
Although you're still hurt by what he's done,
You're tangled up in emotions; you're back to square one.

He still crosses your mind, every second of everyday,
and you always think, why didn't he just stay?
You start to forgive him for putting your heart under attack,
because after all he's done, you'd still take him back.