Just the Little Things

I've said time and time again that life's weird... and honestly, it really really is! It just always seems like when things feel right they suddenly go wrong or vice versa. Of course, everyone prefers the latter. So, today of course, when I started feeling weird and stressed I just thought about simple little things that happen in life which I appreciate and enjoy.

- having exact change

- when your car is shiny after it rains 

- knowing every word to your newest favorite song

- when you make your coffee exactly how you wanted it

- falling in love 

- being unaware that your in love... then realizing it!

- when your cat wants to snuggle

- being told you smell nice

- having a day when your skin is glowing

- new notifications on facebook

- making money

- laughing until you cry

- being told, "i love you" 

- when you know your ass looks awesome in your jeans

- when your feet don't hurt

- beig excited

- breathing in fresh air

- eating breakfast for dinner

- feeling small in someone's arms

- full tanks of gas

- that first snowflake

- being proud of yourself

- kisses when you least expect them

- flirting with boys who flirt back

- chai tea

- bacon

- making someone laugh

My list could go on forever and one day I may even make a new one which includes everything but, for now, this will do. Cheers.

One Big Secret

Are we together?
Or is this just for fun?
Do you want me forever?
Or will we set like the sun?

I can't help but think,
That this isn't real.
But I'm starting to sink,
And don't know how you feel.

I'll stay your secret if you want me to,
But it doesn't have to be that way.
Because you know how I feel about you,
And one day you'll want me to stay.

We play it coy,
But little do they know.
You aren't just another boy,
This "friendship" is just a show.

People will point out the wrong,
But I only see the right.
You're like my favorite song,
And I wanna listen every night.

It's hard to keep this so quiet,
And I know right now I have to.
But to be honest, I can't deny it,
I'm completely in love with you.

Bon Voyage

I talked to my sister, Erin, on the phone today. For those of you who don't know, she moved to Oregon with her boyfriend about two weeks ago. All of the sudden, in the middle of our conversation, I just completely broke down in tears. I miss her so much... This isn't like when she went to college. Or on a vacation. No, her and Drew are such grown-ups now and applying for grown-up jobs...

And what am I doing?

I just wish I could drive a few minutes and be with her. This is way too real how far away she really is.

I feel so selfish for wishing she was home because I know she needed to venture out there. I can't help but hope though that one day we'll be together for good again.

Maybe I should move to oregon too. I'd like that.

Looking Up at the Stars

It's not every day that you meet someone whose either a star or becoming one. Maybe you're actually destine to become the parent of an upcoming actress, pro athlete, or some kind of other public figure.

Or an author.

I found a publishing company. It's small. It's independent, but it's a start.

If you've met me, you've met an author. But this is only the beginning.

If this all goes through as planned, I hope my readers here coninue to support me by buying my little book.

It may not even be very good. But then again, how many people do you know who have their names printed on the front of a book?

I guess im just one of those people; one of those stars.

My Biggest Fan

Where is the sense in listening to what you tell me to do?
It wouldn't matter anyway, I'm never good enough for you.
"You're doing it wrong, and no one agrees with your plan.
Listen to what I'm saying, because you don't understand."
Do I look like a child? Treat me like a human being,
Maybe if you looked through my lens, you'd see what I'm seeing.
I'm at a crossroads, and it's scaring me to death,
But if you're not going to support me, then don't waste your breath.
So maybe I'm wrong, and you could be right,
But I need to see that myself; fight my own fight.
I need you in my corner, or somewhere in the stands,
After all, aren't you supposed to be my biggest fan?

It's a works in progress. Tell me what you think...